a letter;

Dear whoever,
I was sms-ing Aidah awhile ago and we were talking about the future, what the world has in store for us etcetra.

Which got me thinking, 'What do I want to do after this? If I make it to a JC, what do I want to do?' Right now, I have no motivation whatsoever to work hard and achieve what I want. That's because I don't know what to achieve. I have no plans up ahead. It makes my whole life aimless and I hate the feeling. It makes going or studying in a JC pointless because I don't know what I want. I'm so used to my life having people tell me go here or go there, going according to where they want me to go that this education life isn't mine at all. It's becoming theirs. They can't pursue it so they're making me do it. It sucks.

Well, now that I have investigated (not fully) and decide on what I want at the end of the day, I think I'll go through the next few years to bully my brains into absorbing as much facts as possible so that I'm more prepared when I face the big exams and I don't have to keep worrying about how well/badly I did anymore just like what happened before the release of the O's. I know what I want now, so if you could please bug off and don't try to change my path anymore. I'm sick of people being that bloody obstacle. The path is so direct but I'm always being that good kid and following people's orders and at the end of the day, i'm slogging my energy out for people and not for me. So I will appreciate if you just leave that decision to me.

Signed,
Hidayah

ps. Time flies really fast now.

yay friday;

'H' is for hyperventilate,
& happy times!


lawl.

anyway, I met up with Shan after school today and headed to Plaza Singapura. Lunched at KFC where we discussed and laughed about the very disturbing movie; Borat. When the part of the movies which was too much for me came, I just had to stop watching it. It was destroying my virgin eyes and ears and all my five senses. HAHAH! but really I stopped watching altogether and re-watched My Girl because Lee Dong Wook is irresistible.

We went to Spotlight and I got some random stuff I'm going to put into the 'goodie bags'. Then we decided to proceed to Art Friend at Taka to get more things. I got more stuff but Shan didn't. And we went highhh while I was paying for my purchases (hahahahha this sounds very POA-ish!). Then made my way back home by train. & boy, there were quite a lot of people at orchard. It was only 5 but people were already there, probably to get good views of the parade.

WTF;

Sentosa, Palawan Beach, yishun 'kampong' people, rain, sea, games, food, railway station, laughter, unnecessary talking and home sweet home.

and the internet connnection is having a bitch fit.

SPRING CLEANING;

RAHHHH!!!


I love changing wallpapers. Deviantart has got awesome wallpapers that I wish my wallpaper can be like a screensaver which switches wallpaper every one minute or so.

As of now, I have successfully chucked aside my POA and Physics related stuff except for the textbooks and ten-year series. I'll most probably throw away more come Monday because right now, I'm too lazy to decide which to keep and which I will not keep. Hopefully by Monday, three-quarters of those books & papers will be gone.

CNY celebrations yesterday was quite okay. We got oranges, OG pictures and love letters. Sad thing was that it was the last day for many people since they're withdrawing from MI. My class is left with less that 15 people I think.

Before I continue my My Girl marathon, here's wishing all of you a HAPPY NEW YEAR! GONG XI FA CAI!

:)

RIP MY STOMACH APART;

I feel bad for signing out early somehow.
That guilt feeling in me. I hate having weak stomachs. I get painful stomachaches at the wrong place and at the wrong time all the time and it makes me really uncomfortable.

I'd rather someone shove a bayonet into my stomach and pull my stomach out. At least without a stomach, my pain will be less unbearable.

I was well in the morning and then during break, the pain came. I felt nauseous and that excruciating pain in my stomach. I was tempted to vomit everything out but throwing up in school isn't such an encouraging idea. Especially when it comes to girls. They will think I'm bullimic or something and that's not something to be proud of. The last thing I want is having to be sent to for counselling sessions.

I feel really bad. Because only about 6 of my friends are left in school, having to wait until 5pm. It sucks, trust me. It's damn hot and we're having GP at the end of the day. I missed POA, History, Economics and GP. I only attended Maths. Like wtf right. I'm keen to enter JC and I have an attitude of a moron.

Okay quit blogging and I shall go revise my Economics, do my GP research and read up my History notes, for real. But first, medication for the bloody tummy.

a time when i talk too much;

WTH.
Just as I wanted to watch that "7 o'clock" show with Felicia Chin in it, it's over. Sue me for not following the series but I'm too engrossed with my trusty little black sidekick to even bother with the telly anymore.

Except for those times like The Dancefloor, for instance. Which I can't help but LOL so much during the audition episodes that my parents think I'm mad. Shit. I blew off my cover already. No more angel Hidayah. It's the twisted me now.

Eh! It's Total Defence Day tomorrow right? Cool. I hope they blast the sirens as loud as possible. I haven't heard those wailings for the past two years so the SCDF please blast them off your speakers!

Oh yes Valentine's Day. I've been spending my day today with yours truly, me. Well, we ourselves need personal space. So as of now, Valentine's Day is solely a ME! day. (Unless some prince charming turns up at my doorstep which is preposterous because I'm not living in a storybook or am I Cinderella or Queen of the Damned). & I can't believe I have to return to MI tomorrow for school until 6 March. I'm having too much fun at home or outside. Best part is, school ends at a freaking 5PM tomorrow.

I have no idea why but my bloody 'prt sc' function isn't working so i can't proudly show off my weird wallpaper of Invader Zim.

Sigh. I just enjoy changing my desktop wallpaper. Don't you?

weekend warriors;

Out in the sun at East Coast Park yesterday with Ain, Ekin, Faezah, Fandy, Lina, Shahirah and Siti. It was supposed to be a class outing but only the 8 of us turned up. Nevertheless it was an enjoyable time. Ate noodles cooked by Ain's mom and cycled around the place. Ekin, Shahirah and I left around 5 while the rest stayed on.

Anyway, I'm finally done with the JAE submission. I was getting frustrated figuring out which courses are good and beneficial but at the end of the day, I do want to go to YJC. It's near and it's also a under the Top Ten JCs so it's a plus point.

Anyway, I wish all of you the best of luck in your future studies, careers and so on. Whatever you guys are doing, best of luck & just do your best. Everything will turn out good in the end. Speaking of JAE, one hour has passed since its closure.

Now let us all wait, wait and wait.

armadillo;

and she says:
or maybe i put hwa chong arts as first choice, rjc arts second, ajc arts third etc
and she says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

RIGHTT. & i sure need to start making my choices carefully and WISELY!

I'M CONTENTED;

wow.
I'm armed with good news and I'm glad my journey home wasn't filled with sadness but satisfaction. Don't ask me why I'm not happy. I'm just contented.

Firstly, Congrats to all YT-zens especially my 1990 batch!
Because we proved the school wrong! They said we're the weakest batch in terms of PSLE aggregate. In other words, compared to other years, we were taken in with low T-scores. Look where we are now! Last year, the average L1R5 was 16. This year, it was 15 babyy! We pulled up the school's results yoww! First batch to break through the 16 points barrier.

& Mr Tan Teck Hock was there too. Gosh I missed that man, our ex-principal. It was really nice to see him especially today because I think we made him proud lah. Because we were under him when we came in with low T-scores and he was worried about our O's but we did well! But at the same time, he was also there to promote Serangoon JC which he currently is a prinicipal in. And I also miss Mr Yeo man! His voice when he speaks into the microphone. I miss my form teacher Mr Tay who I owed my dinner money to. I paid up my debts already okay!

Other than results, it was good to see all the familiar faces again, with their funny hairdos like zuhairi who has curly wurly hair. My crazy wonderful friends whom I definitely will miss them all so much!!

Secondly, I'm satisfied with my results. It's not very WOAH but at least I got unexpected but happy results. hahahah!

L1R5 - 15
L1R4 - 11

Thank you to all the teachers who taught me in 2006! Without you guys, I doubt I'll get such results so Thank You!
& I most definitely will be going to the fiesta on 30th June. Because I love YTS so much! HAHAHAHAH! The memories and the friendship there is just so strong and the weird teachers who with their mood swings sometimes whom I will miss.

This is one hell of a long entry. But this probably is the last entry about YTS that I will type about.

LATER;

Just 2 hours more to go. I'm damn nervous, though I can't wait to meet all my classmates and friends again. Why now why now??


okay i'm off to do my shoelaces and shower and get ready. wish me luck! :/ :) :( hahahahah! mixed emotions. my typing is crazy.

scream;

I love ellen show!

I had a terrible haircut which left my sides to be really short. & i really mean short. I wanted the sides to be longer but that woman made it so short & idk wtf is wrong with her eyesight. but whatever. it feels weird. i mean back in secondary school, it's something relatively normal because i usually sport a short haircut but it's even weirder now because i have such a boyish haircut and it's a new school now. I can't wait for the hair to grow back.

It's official now that the GCE 'O' level results will be released this Friday. I'm really freaked out and what i've been doing to make myself calm is to think about other things. Get busy with other stuff so you don't have to think about the day. Talking about this is enough to make my stomach churn and fill with butterflies. HAHAHAH!

PE today was quite boring. One quarter of the class turned up and we took height and weight. We decided not to play any games and went off for break instead. I couldn't pay attention in Maths and couldn't remember how to do the sums so talked with Shikin throughout. Accounts after lunch was alright. It was a good thing the lesson lasted for 45minutes because i was getting sleepy. We had break before H1 which was the last lesson for the day; 3.30 - 5pm. Talked and watched people around us, when Shikin, Siti and I decided to skip H1 and go home since we didn't want to stay any longer and the three of us were definitely getting sleepy every minute. My first attempt at skipping lesson! We're supposed to watch The Pianist for History but I've got the feeling i won't stay up to watch even though the movie looks good. Plus, I don't think I'll be missing anything important, really. HAHAHAH! So defensive seh!

Shikin was in hyperventilation mode throughout the bus journey to Bukit Batok MRT and from there to Yishun MRT and I have the feeling she still is now. HEH! Never mind, I'll be there at 7.40am! :)

And yes, GOOD LUCK FOR THE UPCOMING RESULTS Y'ALL!

OLE! OLE! OLE! OLE!

THE LIONS ARE BRINGING BACK THE TROPHY BABY!!!
WELL DONE SINGAPORE!!

:D

what goes around comes back around;

School has been quite smooth sailing, minus the occasional IFORGOTTODOMYHOMEWORK or ICANNOTBEBOTHEREDTODOMYHOMEWORK. My days in MI are much happier especially with the wonderful people around to make my day. People like Desmond, Fandy, Nadiana, Siti and Wahid whom I'll miss because they're just so crazy and happy people, ready to create havoc on any day.



Ekin, Siti & Me in Art Room during Home Tutor period.


My class: 07B7


The 07B7 Malay girls


I like this shot.


Last but not least, the happy people! :)


It's kinda scary now that we all know results will be out around next week. It's either Tuesday or Friday. The only good part about getting our results is going back to school and meeting all of my classmates; 4E5 Mustangs! I miss them and their crazy antics a lot. The girls in NATIONS!, the times when we will stop by the provision shop and get ourselves ice cream to consume while walking to the bus stop, especially the jelly ice-cream which is wobbly once the ice around it melts. And the times when we will run to the bus stop when we spot the bus coming. and how we laugh so much when running. Happy old times!

Arghh! This is even much scarier than the O'level exams coming. Getting the results is which is equaivalent to getting a death sentence somehow. Whether you live or die. I really hope my grades aren't that bad because I screwed up at some bits but seriously, I don't want any fails in any subjects.

Speaking of results is making me nervous already. I shall end off here. See y'all soon!

oh and i've got a new heartthrob.