HAIYAKKK;

A dozen apologies for the lousy updates. Busy and truth is, I never really enjoyed posting here. But for the convenience of non-LJ users.

I want to take a trip down memory lane and go back to a time
when stress isn't really taking so much of a toll on me.
I feel the pressure but it's not taking over me; my body and mind.
The work I did for O's is nothing compared to now.
Yes, I still remember clearly that time when my brain collapse on me in the middle of the Physics paper and I panicked so much.
Thankfully, I had faith in Allah and said some prayers. This is not those times when people say that their brain just collapse on you because this is really collapse. Whatever that I write and think is somewhat slurred (?).

But then again last year, I enjoyed going to school although waking up in the mornings was a really difficult task. But I'm still waking up at 6 plus in the morning so no biggy. Because I love my class loads and they never fail to make me laugh and smile everyday.

I know last year I'm always turning to the back and communicating with Aidah, shouting my rubbish answers from my seat during lessons ( which of course the teachers take with a pinch of salt. I don't dare to be that girl anymore in this new school because everything is SO SERIOUS. ) Getting very distracted by anyone passing by the classroom ( not only me hokay! lol. Think NATIONS will know what I mean here. ) and also nearing the O's, the classroom was like a warzone. Our seating arrangement was disastrous. Some here, there, in the centre, at the corner, all in their close-knit groups. Teachers didn't care anymore I guess just as long we studied hard.

Now, breaks aren't really breaks. Breaks are those precious minutes or hours that you use to complete your tutorials or do a last-minute revision. Last time, breaks were breaks. We would go down, have a light meal and then try to smuggle Pokka Green Tea or the fake Ramly burger to class.

I think I might want to migrate somewhere less stressful, slow-paced and nice so that when I go there, I'm actually much more hardworking than the rest. Do you know how freaky it is to see people working so hard and feel that whatever you do is nothing? Like what you are doing is just a little? I feel so drained out already but what I do is not enough.

Hmmm I head O's certs are ready for collection? Anyone planning to collect them yet?

brianstorm;

Finally a music video that makes sense and holds a number of
messages.
Ignore the song ( though it's nice, kind of grows on you after awhile. ) because i haven't really have time to make the connection to the video yet.





My MC ended last Saturday so I attended PE and training just now. PE was okay though I had to stop for toilet break. Disrupted my whole run. Then physical training was quite a killer. I experienced a sharp pain above my stomach around there and started limping for a few metres. Funny how a pain in the abdomen area causes you to limp even. Sickeningly painful.

I need to start saving up already.
OBS - $200++
Malay Lit Trip to N. Sembilan - $300++
Pending trip to Australia ( CCA ) - $1000++

My edusave only has $200++ as of now.

Maths test was difficult. I can't attempt the first few questions. Over 30, I doubt I get close to 15 even. What the tutor said is true anyway. You can't expect A'level to be easy even if it is H1 Maths.

Sigh. Have a good week ahead everyone and Happy Schooling to those attending poly.

a note;

Dear Economics,
I enjoy learning about you because you're intersting (currently).
But do you know,




WHEN IT COMES TO ESSAYS,
YOU KILL EVERY BRAIN CELL OF MINE?!
You bring so much agony to my friends and I,
there is so many things to explain about,
even when our essays seem like it's finished,
it really isn't.

2 Econs essays by 2.30pm tomorrow.
bye.

we should get jerseys 'cos we make a good team;

I'm going to study like a mad mozafugger.
I sent an email to the Dept of Geography in NUS asking if
it's possible for me to do Geography when I'm taking
History for A's. They said it's possible so long I have a good
command of English.

I'm darn glad that I am able to do
Geography. You might think wtf Hidayah! You already are taking History for 6 years or so & you want to switch. Sorry
mankeedoodettes, I don't wish to be a History teacher or Historian or Archaeologist. Geog's cool!

I want to help
save the planet! :)

Watford VS Portsmouth : 1-1 currently.
Yes people. Live update from my own lappy. I love
live streaming of soccer matches.
In about an hour plus time, Arsenal's going against
Newcastle. Live baby live!!

I have a History test tomorrow. ^uv%#!)745@!&)*!!!!wtf!!!

zer-ponj-bob zer-ku-wer penz;

Bloody yj and their policies of

''Even with an MC, we'll still give you a zero if you are absent for a test. No re-tests!"
or their
"I want a photocopied MC if you're absent," and that is said by every teacher who taught my class so if there
is say Maths, GP, History and Econs for the day,
I have to photocopy 4 MCs for them and the original to my CT. These things drive me nuts. Not that I have been absent from school
but I think it's really troublesome.

I'm thankful for Good Friday so that I have more time to finish up as much assignments and squeeze some time for History and Econs revision
since I have tests next week. I visited the Doc two days ago and she said I'm stressing myself out. Maybe in the sports department, yes I do stress
myself out because it's very paiseh if you ask me. I'm usually the last one running on the tracks, not that I mind but you can feel that
competitive spirit somehow. So I ran at my own pace and only on Monday that my body almost gave way. I was very tempted to collapse on the tracks
and just surrender myself because I don't care anymore. My breaths are really short, the stamina is there but the breathing part is painful. My chest hurts and the whole journey home was tiring. Huffing and puffing like the Big Bad Wolf in Red Riding Hood lah. I'm coughing rather badly now but the breathing part has decrease a bit but I don't know if it's still there. Anyway, I'm planning to go for a light jog tomorrow to build up the stamina and also heat up my body.
I'm banned from consuming anything cold now because that's also another factor that affects my lungs. Something like bronchitis. My throat is sore though. I expect running nose or a change in my voice soon.

In other words, my body is falling apart but I'll put it back together again. Soon.

I miss doing photography. It's not easy to find time to do anything except school-related things. I get rather irritated nowadays especially when people bug me with unnecessary things that is not in my priority list. Sorry lah, but really, I can't be bothered to entertain so many people at one time. There are exceptions though but mainly, I take quite awhile to reply to messages nowadays or forgot to reply back. Sorry once again.

This weekend is the time for me to finish up whatever that is due next week, re-do my PI, a proper one, and revise for History and Econs test next week.
Loads to do and so little time but heck, anything to keep me busy and occupied. At least I don't have to feel guilty about not doing any work or what. & I might
go from training on Saturday I guess. Since teacher asked me to come down at 11am to watch the match then I might as well train along.

Ahhh we'll see how.

School has been going along quite okay. A few cranky teachers, loads of work but a crazy bunch of people and a certain eyecandy is good enough to keep me going through those hard times. Hahah! But whatever it is, MUST STUDY HARD!