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hello world!
school is fine so far this week. Today in Econs, we had this game whereby we had to draw the PPC graph on ' fall of unemployment '. We were divided into groups of five or six and mine had Ekin, Fandy, Siti, Wahid and me. We called ourselves JC Rejects. Demoralising name but it's cool. heh! Plus we do lived up to our name. We drew the wrong graph 4 times but we didn't give up & mind you, each time our answer was rejected, 2 points are taken away.

but in the end, we got it correct. the first and only group to do so too! :)
we dared to take risks and besides, we've got good teamwork! & happy + funny people to work with is always awesome.

Friday's herrreee! okay id better go. Off to pick up my laptop from Shan & give her a huggy wuggy before she flies to India tomorrow morning. HMPH! I'M GONNA MISS YOU HUN! LUV YA PLENTY!! <333
& I'm going to visit my sick granny at Tan Tock Seng Hospital as well.
GET WELL SOOOON GRAN!! I WANT YOU BACK IN GOOD HEALTH SO THAT YOU CAN WHIP UP GOOD FOOD!! heee. <333333333

most of the time;

i miss these people.


& i definitely miss these girls.

<333

this is how a heart breaks;

- jumps on bed
YAYYY! my parents are allowing me to watch the first half of the very showdown between Arsenal & Manchester United. I bet it's going to be one helluva exciting match. 2350hours come fast please!
though as a gunners fan, i just have that feeling they'll lose to Man Utd. but still, i support my gunners! <3

and since tomorrow school is starting late, i don't mind really. for the past 2 mondays, shikin and i have been coming at the normal everyday timing and we had to wait for an hour for flag raising which sucks because we just sit at the grandstand, with earphones plugged in our ears and stoned.

stone seems a very common word in my blog already. stone stone stone.

TP Open House yesterday was fine. Visited it with the good company of Amanda, Cheryl, Jiaen & Shantelle. Met up with my girlays Nabilla & Shahidah too there. The business school was interesting and i quite like the Diploma in Leisure & Resort Management. It seems like the sort of thing i see myself do in the future. HEH! They teach things like events management which is really going to be fun and hectic too.

Plus there's the Diploma in Veterinary or something which I'd love to take since working with animals is something I'd want to do. NYP Open House is next week. They've got Visual Communications now. If i was still intersted in design, I'd probably take that into consideration. Just that the market in Singapore is small but they've got a large pool of talents so competition is hard. I can never match up with those out there who are just really good but i don't mind one bit. I still have business & applied science to go to. Applied science may not be so easy but i'd turn to business anytime. ohwell, we'll see how things go.

Jam&hop was so so. i think the only fun part was taking lots of pictures with the girls using AMD's camera so yessa, waiting for her to upload them then i can steal them all! :)

urgh i hate this new blogger thing.

hello good friend

it's really amusing listening to my dad shout madly over the match
between Singapore & Indonesia. Pretty interesting considering that Indonesia managed to score after every goal Singapore had. So f-ed up over the defence lah. Indra put it at 2-1 so nicely and then came the second goal from Indonesia.

final score 2-2. i think if i'm a guy and if ever i get to play with the singapore team, i'll try to stay away from alam shah. he's so scary. he's elbowing is dangerous man. one hit and you bleed. & i think shahril plays well just like the last asia cup singapore played.

oklah hidayah stop rambling abt the match.

i was late for school this morning, along with another 100 or 100+ students. it's so funny that there are so many latecomers. back then, the maximum latecomers for yt was 10 at least. and shikin and i weren't even in a hurry because even when we boarded 941, there were still more people at the bus stop. i think i can rofl because it's really weirdly funny. i think i'm going to develop into a rebel soon because i have other bad plans up ahead. hehhh. >:) <---- the mischievous face.

i can't wait for friday. i'm in the mood for shopping but i don't know i i have sufficient cash for the day now that my school is using cashcard which is really troublesome. i almost died of online window-shopping. there are alot of pretty things out there that i wish i had the cash/money/wealth to buy it. but i shall control the temptation.

i shall and i will and i will and i shall.

before i end, meet my buddy! he's working as a mannequin at fourskin. say HI to him when you go there okay!

wake me up when this madness ends; ( no, really. )

school is defenitely getting retarded as the day goes by. the people are okay but the teachers are so weird. like my MT teacher who seems to have a problem with yt people or something. yesterday it was shikin, today it was me.

he asked me to tell an english fable to the class. wtf. i don't even know any! it's been months since i read proper novels. i've been too busy reading and memorising textbooks. he too asked me why i wasn't in the same school with this other girl in my class.

" well that's because my mom sent me to xishan primary, "

oh and here comes the best part. He said yt's students are not good. as in discipline wise i guess. like wth. fyi, we can't even go around yishun with our blouses or tops tucked out without having our dear DM come and tell us off. we can't even sit at void decks and talk because our DM loves to go for his rounds and catch whoever isn't obeying school rules.

so come fellow yt schoolmates! let's unite and CHARGEEEE!!!

whatever lah. it's a good thing there is no more MT already. oh and PE was okay. thankfully they didn't make us run 5km but probably they will next lesson or subsequent lessons idk. did sprints and some exercise and my legs were screaming in pain lah. ( note to self: train more! )

history lesson was damn funny. it's not the lesson but the people in class. the teacher looks like those innocent sort and he kept talking about Cold War by reading from the slides even though he gave us the notes. Then there were the people in class itself. Siti and I were laughing at the people around. I laughed more though. I couldn't control my laughter because it's so weird. The teacher at the front talking and this guy sitting in front of him is sleeping for a good 20mins? you don't get that kind of luxury last time. then this girl beside us even power! took out her specs and put head on the table and slept. the rest were just doing their own thing & i was stoning most of the time. yeah stone!

the people in school are so weirdddd. HAHAHAHAHAH!
im supposed to use this time to learn about Logarithms or something like that. Bloody H2 Maths. Shikin the lucky woman is currently moshing and having the time of her life most prolly at Muse's gig lahh! Lucky her. I shall go for Rain's instead. Anyone wanna buy me tix? hahhaha. i don't even listen to Rain but he's got hot bod ah.

smile empty soul;

wow i thought last year sucked but the starting of this year isn't going too well. last year sucked because of some personal stuff and school but come to think of it, i'd rather be studying until the wee hours of the morning. Compared to now, i'd rather turn back time.

things i need to get done (asap)

- arithmetic and geometric progression homework
(dammit i know nuts about it. if ever i'm in doubt, go online and rant about how h2 maths suckssssss.)

- study A maths, as much of it, tomorrow or tonight
(i'll scare everyone else during Maths lesson. not because my maths is so brilliant but because i'll scream and turn into a monster due to extreme frustration. then they'll make me stayback every friday for counselling.)

- be more lively!!!
(righttt. if only the school promise to invite the circus over and i'll let the handsome lions and pretty tigers out and order them to pounce on everyone. i'll be the most liveliest (or alive) person!)

- stop stoning
(people are starting to think i'm unfriendly. yeah i am a bitch with an anti-social behaviour and psychotic disorder so dont talk to me or i'll take out my claws like wolverine and start drowing a capital 'H' at your backs! hahahahahahah.)

i can't help but laugh out loud at all of the above. i'm not unfriendly but i so tired of expanding my social circle already lah. 1500 people in that school. and every inch i expand, it just gets more frustrating. i'll be that lone ranger everyone avoids. growl!

ps. I LOVE AOL RADIO!!!

this ain't a scene, it's an arm race;

hello earthlings. this week was pretty rough for me. my blog song, starlight by muse, the music is somehow comforting, not the lyrics ah because the lyrics is just off. hahah! okay i have no idea how to explain.

today was really insane for me. firstly, ragini said i was in the same class as her which was a history class so i was quite relieved somehow because i don't know if i could cope with geography since i'm really new in geography. so i went to class which 7A5 i think and Alissa too was in 7A5. when the teacher passed around the class list, my name wasn't there. in other words, i was in the wrong class. home tutor period already started so i rushed off to find my class. asked this teacher where 02-01 was and he said to the left. i being a nutcase, entered 02-04 i think because the 1 looked like a 4. when i entered the class and even sat already, i saw my name again wasn't on the list. the guy beside me was laughing already. so i got out again and looked for my class and finally found it, only to be reprimanded by the teacher.

i found the whole incident really amusing. hahahah! i was laughing when i went for break. literature really drove me nuts because my answers are either very general or it shows i have a really wild imagination. i switched to Commerce faculty now, taking Economics, Maths and POA as H2 and History as H1. yeah i decided to go back to my roots. Shikin's in the same class too so at least i have someone i can talk to right now. not that i don't have any friends in Arts but i don't have anyone to turn to much really. I just realised how much i really don't know about literature when i met up with Aidah, Shu Yi and Qian Xin and they were talking about Van Gogh starry starry night. I'll be so screwed in lit lah!

warning: too much anger for one's own safety

this entry contains too much anger so if you wish to read it, be warned!

people like these should jolly well curl up and die! if i could elaborate, i would but i can't so i won't because slamming people will just get me sued and since i'm just a juvenile, i still won't have enough money to hire a lawyer to fight back.

i'm not fed-up with my life because i can never be with people like NATIONS and my girls to cheer me up. i've never been this angry in my life and you should be honoured for being the first recipient to do so. blardy fucked up lah! there's so much anger brewing in me so much that i don't know who to turn to anymore though of course i know i have my girls to help me out. it is damn sickening and it sucks. everyday is another dreadful day as of now. if i could strangle you, i would, but i can't so i won't. i think now you should stay as far away from me as possible because i might just use my claws and scribe your face or something. three words, leave me alone.

i doubt you'll find my blog and even if you do, i don't give a damn really because everyone who reads will be wondering who the hell i'm talking about except a few. it's true. i can never feel safe and secure now. because everyone is different so you just don't know. here's a tip to you. Please mind how you react to different people. if i have a temper of a lionness, i would have pounce on you and eat you up. consider yourself lucky enough i didnt give a flying kick to your face which i would do if i took karate.

yes i'm sadistic like that. now you see that evil in me.
if you survived till now, congrats. im just really frustrated and angry right now and trust me, it won't subside that easily. if i don't talk to you tomorrow, just leave me alone as simple as that or just shut up. because i don't want to talk to you, understand? this doesn't go to one, it goes to all of you.

the only good part about today is meeting up with Amanda and Shantelle. They brought JOY to my depressed life and i'm SO happy/euphoric/ecstatic to see them. see what i mean by i can't be happy without my girls? laughing, talking and shopping for abit is makes me a happy girl but when i returned home, the anger just comes back. so when i'm this angry, don't expect it to suppress any sooner.

so bye.

why do all good things come to an end;

firstly, ARSENAL WON! hahahah! i was so happy. at first i was scared because there's much news about liverpool going to win all that but in the end, 3-1 baybeh! and Robin played too! yes happiness! :)))

and my entries, the caps and all will be quite haywire. i can't be bothered to press CAPS LOCK and to make sure my sentences are grammatically correct so bear with me.

just now i went to Alvina's blog and looking at the pictures she posted about last year made me realise how much i really miss those crazy times. from our class obsession with pokka green tea or any form of Pokka tea and how we tried to smuggle them to class, to stalking guys not our age (hahah! i think this one Nations will know what it means). but it was fun, in its own ways. because now i can't buy green tea at Stall 1 anymore. i don't think they sell the bottled ones. i hate canned drinks. plus i can't stalk guys anymore without the support and help. hahahah! k shuddup.

plus of course mr tay himself who always gave me that STOP-TALKING-RUBBISH look everytime i talked nonsense or even when he said "very funny!". if i do that in school now, i'll probably get suspension which is kind of interesting since i never get suspended in secondary school. shall try one of these days. hah!

while i was going back home from buying some stuff, i asked my dad to drive past the school. idk. i just feel like looking at the school. because it has been more than a month since i last saw the school. i never stepped into that area since the wednesday after the last o'level paper. but i didn't go anyway because it was getting quite late.

so tell me, how many times have i written about how i missed last year so much in my blog huh?

piang school tomorrow. my orientation is long gone. other schools like NYJC and YJC are still having their orientation which is quite cool because lessons won't start so early for them but quite a bummer for me because i hate having orientations that stretch for many days. i shall not unleash the madness in me. shall contain it and make myself mad.

edit
rofl! i just found this on jeremy's multiply. apparently three-quarters of the population of yishun town are inter-connected someway or another at multiply.



look at me! at the very right side. as you can see some of us arent even helping lah. i just found this picture rather amusing. eh more camp pictures!

i wish the photography club or anyone could release the 2005 sec 3 camp pictures. i know they have lots of it because they posted a lot on the noticeboard. i want those with me in it. hahahahah! vainpot sia.

i don't quite know how to say how i feel;

Today was better than yesterday. My group mates are starting to get along with each other and I'm trying my best to remember the names of the girls in my group. The guys are alright and quite helpful at times. Apparently the Sciences stream is really popular, then Commerce then Arts.

My little cousin just passed away today I think because he was buried this afternoon. When my dad told me that, I was really shocked and soon the sadness just started to envelope me. He's really young and even though he did suffer from sickness, it's really unexpected.

To add to my sadness, Robin and Fabregas won't be playing for the match against Liverpool. I hope Walcott comes and play because I like watching him run so fast with the ball, pass to a player upfront and that player scores. It makes the match exciting. Sigh. What luck. Arsenal against my former favourites.

Oh and I chose geography as one of my subjects in H2. First option that is but Shikin said the chances are not high because they want us to have the basics of geography. It's not that I don't want History but I'm already going to take Literature as H2 and it'll be quite heavy content altogether. Plus writing essays wasn't at all fun when you don't have such wonderful vocabulary and phrasing out your sentences. Geography at the same time is quite interesting and frankly speaking, both have interesting things about them. If I don't get to a geography class then it doesn't matter because they're bound to put me in History and HELLO WORLD WAR 2 AND SOUTH EAST ASIA again!

Maybe I should show my report book and show them that I got distinction for Geography in Sec 2 final exams. History too! Damn proud of it hokay! lol. 'cos it's like a once in a lifetime thing and after that, it's mostly F9s for History during Sec 3. Then again, I don't think we got back our report book, did we? I don't know where's mine anyway. Like they even cared looking at our past year results.

song to say goodbye;

Some MI person just called. Guess she's one of those instructor kind of people who will be at the orientation in the next three days. And I only know my orientation group about an hour ago. So I assume Cel got a call before me? Oh and by the way, who are you Cel? I try to figure out whether we have any connections or what but I don't think so, so please reply to my tag, thank you very much.

Actually I have nothing to say. Just that, school ends at 2.30pm until Thursday and 4pm on Friday which is SO COOL! hahahah. Because i can watch Ellen Show. whoopee! oh yes i know some of you guys can slack at home while us have to go back to school or work which is lucky you because i don't how the hell i'm going to wake up at 5 plus in the morning seriously. I sleep at 3 or 4 every night/morning and wake up at 11 or 12. I shall try. Try I shall.

Oh oh my new year resolution is to have a wild cat! lol. yes a wild cat.

here kitty kitty kitty!

but of course i can't do that. i don't want it to trash my room and climb the pipes and in the end, it goes missing. i don't do resolutions really. i just go with the flow. i mean for me i'd rather do like a weekly resolution 'cos it's much easier for me and gets me started. okay shuddup.

best of luck to those going for PAEs! and alvina don't worry, i won't borrow money. i'll borrow their bank accounts! hahahha!